The Other Side of Me

This post is overdue because my laptop charger conked out! I had been surviving on the lappie battery's short life until it went dead! now i cant turn on my lappie at all!!!

So desperate times call for deperate measures! after a whole week of surviving without my lappie, i decided to get a new one! hehehe. will try to post pics of my new lappie in my next post as i do not want to take the attention away from my original topic.

San returned 2 fridays ago after his fortnight long reservist. We stayed in during the weekend and those 48 hours changed my life. Never had i felt so blissfully happy then during those moments i spent with him, doing practically nothing, just chilling and staring into each other's eyes. hehe...

Most importantly, it gave me a whole new perspective in life. Pray tell, how exactly did those moments with him changed everything i had aimed for in life? Believe it or not, it was really simple. i had spent the last few years of my life chasing sky-high dreams. Dreams I thought if i'd achieved, I would attain happiness. After all, what's life if you're not happy right? How could I have been so foolish. I was so focused on my studies and then my career in order to be successful that I had completely forgotten what was standing right in front of me. He was standing there the whole time but I realized that all this while, i had only half-acknowledged his presence, only fully acknowledging when I needed/ wanted something from him. Not fully appreciating his presence and the happiness that he can give me.

I thought success would make me happy. Little did i think that happiness was there all this while. I just didn't take the time to grasp it in my hands.

That morning when he was holding me in his arms, I don't know what made me say it... With tears in my eyes, I said to him, "San, If I died today, I'd die a happy woman."

I have no idea how people do this. More accurately, how the hell do wives whose husbands have to report for reservist do this? I'm reminded of one of the earlier episodes of desperate housewives where Lynette got addicted to her sons' add medication and in the end had a nervous breakdown. When her friends all gathered to console her, she asked, why didn't anyone tell me that they're going through the same thing? I thought I was alone!

That's exactly how I feel right now, except the difference is it doesn't involve kids but just me and my hubby. Or more accurately, just me. Lynette's problem was she was having difficulty dealing with her children's hyperactivity and the fact that noone was there for her to help her deal with it. My problem is that I don't know how to deal being alone at home without San by my side. He returned from his reservist training at 7.30 pm last night and left home at 7:30 pm just now to book in again. Now I'm faced with another five more days of being alone. It's not so much being alone but it's being alone without him by my side that's killing me.

I feel there's a huge hole in my heart, so incomplete, so empty.

I wish its the evening of 17th July right now.

Five more days. Sigh. Sounds more like 500 days.

I'm so lost without you baby...

I can't breathe.

Ok there aren't many pictures from day 3 cos I spent the whole day at the spa! Here are some snippets from that unforgettable day...


We began the day with a swim at the pool (well at least San went swimming, I just lounged around taking pics of him... hehe)


San's going for the man-made waterfall!


He made it!

after breakfast, we went for a walk by the beach...




We decided to follow the birdie that made this little steps around...


but it flew to the other side!

So we made a retreat to the floating jetty...



and this fishy tried to nibble on my feet! hehehe...


It was then time for me to go to the spa (the resort has its own in-house spa built right in the middle of the greenery!) The package I took consisted of a body massage, body scrub, an aromatherapy bath at the hydro-tub, a facial and a healthy gourmet lunch! The kind spa staff invited San to join me at lunch and we sat there feeding each other whilst enjoying the peaceful surroundings...

Here are some random pics San took during our Jungle Trekking before it got dark...



We learnt quite a lot about nature during our trek (our guide was excellent and very knowledgeable!). I was pretty skeptical about going for it but San really wanted to go so I relented and I was so glad I did! It was a great experience! We saw flying lemurs gliding around from tree to tree and a giant squirrel that glides too, we saw many different species of trees, including a fig tree which is thousands of years old! and San very cleverly spotted an owl in the dark! and believe it or not, all this was within the premises of the resort! Yep, the resort is built within the jungle itself!

We then returned to our chalet to shower and get ready for THE dinner that I've been waiting for... Candlelight dinner at Pahn-Thai (geddit?) restaurant complete with serenading singers! hehe...


This is like one of my fantasies coming true! It can't get anymore romantic than this man!


and to have it with him is just simply icing on the cake... :)


The sumptuous spread for the night...


giving the staff an excellent feedback for good food, good service and excellent ambience!

and let me end this post with yet another spectacular shot of the sunset taken from our chalet balcony... Simply gorgeous...

as promised, day 2 of our short but immensely enjoyable trip to beautiful Langkawi.


Ever wondered what it was like to wake up with waves crashing on the rocks beneath you?


It's pure serenity...


One of the photos I took from our morning walk... we had the option of calling up the resort's buggy everytime we wanted to get to anywhere around the sprawling resort but we always chose to walk so we could enjoy the nature and the resort's beautiful surroundings...


Piling on the fuel for a day of shopping!


Yep, we had breakfast by the beach everyday when we were there!

We didn't take any photos when we were at the city as I was too busy running around looking for stuff to buy! 'Twas a tad disappointing as there really wasn't much too buy... The pasar malam was a much more satisfying retail therapy...


When we returned to our chalet, look who decided to drop in...


We later learnt from our guide during our night walk that it's a macaque. cutie pie and completely harmless as long as you DO NOT feed it...


Spotted during our night walk! Is it an owl? a lemur? a squirrel?


Darn! We chased it away...


We came back to our chalet with the bed all made up with an orchid on each side. How sweet...


and for that night's dinner, we chose Japanese!


Loving the curtains... and of course my darling San... hehe


and we were the only patrons there! We arrived late (around 9:30 pm) so the dinner crowd probably already left...


My scrumptious and crispy salmon plus the works... My mouth is watering just looking at this...


San's special order udon with extra ingredients!


Do you know the feeling where all you can think of is nothing else in this world except for the person standing next to you and feeling ever so thankful to have this person to spend that wondrous moment with you? That was exactly what I was feeling when San and I were walking back to our chalet together...

Part 3 is coming up soon... 'Til then, nighty night...

I know this is way overdue since we made the trip 2 months ago and I kept proscratinating so today I finally took the time to upload them!

Everytime I look at the photos, I'm reminded of how wonderful the trip was and we can't wait to go again next year!


Our first picture in Langkawi! and it had to be in the car, duh. The driver, who was waiting at the airport arrivals, only had my name on his placard but not San's. I think cos his name is too long. haha...


camwhoring while San checks us in... Hehe


So which one's ours?


That one! Our very own chalet on water!


and we've got it all to ourselves!


and the view from the balcony is absolutely breathtaking!


we then dropped all our bags and went for a nice breezy walk in the perfect weather.


and look, the resort's own enclosed beach!


and we're off the pasar malam! (night market)


Waiting for our dinner... I miss the hawker food in M'sia!


We came back just in time to see the sunset...


One of the most relaxing moments of my life... seeing nature at its grandest...

Watch out for part 2 for more photos! 'Til then, ciao!

I am officially back! after being absent from blog-0-world for almost 2 months! Singtel came today to install mio and I can finally post my first official post from our new abode....

Boy do I have a lot to update. We went to Langkawi for a short R&R (will post pics soon!) before officially moving in the house. The house is now furnished and livable and my customised shoe cabinet is installd! Yay! I am still NOT pregnant in case anyone is wondering. Please do me a favour and stop asking. Blame my overtly perfectionist tendencies for not having a baby yet. I will be hosting a housewarming soon (maybe next month?) Exams at UniSIM are over which means no more running around at the office and having to think twice about taking leave! I still went to work despite feeling flu-ish (but nope doc said I did not have a fever at all despite feeling absolutely horrible and weak) Now I have fully recovered! alhamdulillah! My grandma has returned from her umrah (thank god cos I was having a bad feeling about that trip). and now Ekhsan's grandma has left for umrah... Now you understand why I still can't have a housewarming yet? Have to wait for the matriarchs to return!

OK that's all for today's update. Ciao!